Being the saint

for him I sing, …

a prayer

the day is born waking the world to the light
from the darkness and death of yesterdays night

the harbingers of life, spreads their wings fill the sky
and i await for the moment, i can see you in my eye

thus starts my everyday, warm and bright
in the presence of your divine light

the spirit of life and hope kindled, i feel alive
in your faith, i feel any apocalypse i can survive

when the night sets in the dreary dark
sadly, silently to my tomb, i embark

dreaming the new day, the world asleep
with hope, love and a prayer, i weep

remembering the moments that you are
and hope for the moments that you will

the patron saint you are to this lightlorn sailor
navigate me safely to the port on a mere prayer

thou are my angel, bless me to your light
Be there, keep me in your sight

the god thou are to me, salve my deadlost soul
make me for the time complete and whole

i am not good, not bad neither right nor poor
i am not beautiful, not ugly, neither virtuous nor vile.

i am what you make of me; i am what you break of me

you mean all this to me, a god, an angel, a muse, a saint
and all i have for you is just a prayer

and all I do is just keep the faith, hope
pray and love you hopelessly, for ever

all i know is my days and nights revolve around you; seemingly unceasing
all i do is hope, love and keep praying; hopelessly but untiring


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to sleep I go

when i am awake all i think is of you
and when i sleep all i dream is you
when i am alone, i am with your memories
and when not, i am in your anticipation

i watch for the wretched moments to tick
one after another meaningless and silent
in vain hope for that one moment
that bring me to you, a mirage

not hope, i can loose,
not love, i can give up,
not you, i would not pray,
i can, give my life.

i love you

the tide is tough for me to steer
winds are rough not knowing where i veer
do not know how long can i endure
but i sleep in your dreams for sure

till eternity
i love you

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ergo sum

Exist my muse,
ignite my passion
enliven my spirit
kindle my heart
and become my poem.

Exist my angel,
shine thy light upon me
guide me through thy path
lest I loose my way
wander hopelessly astray.

Exist my God,
elucidate life and universe
meaning of all, being and nothingness
redeem my soul
For eternity I do not want to be lost.

Exist my love,
in you liveth my muse
in you doth my angel
and in you my god
in you is all and none
And in you, I exist.

Just exist my love,
somewhere anywhere
what can i ask more
amour, just be
I want to exist.

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i miss you or not

sweet is the taste of the pain of bereftion
poignant is the melody of the songs of desolation
enlightening is the melancholy of your absence
for I am miss you

the silence sings the absence of your voice
the void reflects images of your non presence
the ambient aromates the scent of your departure
and do I miss you

you are where, there or anywhere nowhere near me
but you are always here, where i am, near me
not far a distance that love cannot reach
too far a distance thought would not reach

i miss you, though you are with me
and i never miss you, though you are not with me
there be a place day under the sunlight
where i am you and you me.

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once upon a time, here and now

Once upon a time, here and now,
lived the king reigned the ruins of time.
Roaming in the halls, haunted by memories,
Of tomorrows when you love him.

Laughing languid over requited love,
Hearing harpsichords keeping rhythm to the hearts beats
Dying to the fact that you dont love,
And not that space time grows old.

Sings the chorus, the songs of life,
What is heard is only the sounds of death.
The living celebrating the spirit of life,
But the dead in heart celebrates the soul of living.

Why do I love thee? And why not thou love me?
Were never asked question thank God, I dost
For the opportunity to love thee. Lest a moment
Would have been here when I loved not thee.

Said the dead King swore on his womb.
Writ on his tomb that a fool he was,
By a world celebrating his demise,
but in your love, did he abscise.

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the constant companion

I travel about
Places crowded, scant People rich, poor
Night and Day, Sorrow and Joy
Indifferent to dualities and destinies

When I am tired and weak,
Stop about a place and rest i seek,
Place where people gather to drink,
Some weary travelling, some weary of not

On such a stop, I meet a man,
And an inspiration for further travel
A meaning for all my mindless travels
Culminating in the event of meeting him.

In his beauty, I saw the beauty of universe,
In his existence, I saw the manifest,
In him, the microcosm of the macrocosm.
And in him, was all my meaning.

I just travel about
And I am tired or needed rest
For all I know I am dreaming
Or worse, I am in deliriums

Indifferent to real and virtual,
In love, have I lost my mind?
What is a fact and what is fiction?
And where is that line?

I now know I do not travel alone
He might be a dream or delirium
He might be real of virtual
But my love is real and ever going.

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i express in words multitude,
experience of unrequited love’s sweet sorrow
create a platitude
to the tone of gratitude

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renaissance warrior

a thousand year ruins stand laughing in my face
as i remember how glorious days they were
how they stood in this world magnificent and magnanimous
standing reminders and relics how my ancestors they lived

a thousand year pilferage stand mocking of my past
as i dream of a new world, that we want to be
to live the way we always have lived and
to live the way we always wanted to live

a thousand year poverty smiles upon us sardonically
as i count those plundered riches of our yore
as i seek to enrich ourselves once again
with all the priceless treasures that were us

a thousand year frustration plays games in my mind
of the losses and defeats of every vain attempt
as i strengthen myself in resolve and in spirit
to return to our lands and to our lives

but a thousand year valour and sacrifice
boils my blood to the tip of vengeance
as i turn into a reformations soldier
to fight for restoration of our civilization

and a thousand year truth and virtue
and the spirits of the brave who dared
blessed me to the best of my efforts
and turn myself into a renaissance warrior

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can i hold my ground
will i win back our lands
will i get back to my people
and will they get back to their homes?

will my people live their freedom
will they be sleeping in peace
will their boundaries be sage
and will their doors be open?

shall my women live unworrying
will they be living without fear
shall they be able to eat what they sow
will they be prospering in plentitude?

can i help them to such a life
am i capable for such a fight
if yes or no, is my resolve strong
will god help me in being strong?

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god lead me

god lead me unto the day,
my nation deshackles a thousand year drudgery,
celebrating the resurrection,
resounds the unity, fraternity and freedom.

god lead me unto the day,
my nation rises proudly to the sun
to shine the world we already knew
and sleep to a peaceful night.

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About Me

To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.

-- From Ulyssess by Lord Alfred Tennyson


"Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law"

-- AL I:40, Liber Al vel Legis, Aleister Crawley


Aut viam inveniam aut faciam

-- spoken by Hannibal whilst crossing alps with elephants at Punic Wars


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For Him I Sing

FOR him I sing,
I raise the present on the past,
(As some perennial tree out of its roots, the present on the past,)
With time and space I him dilate and fuse the immortal laws,
To make himself by them the law unto himself.

from "The Leaves of Grass"
by "Walt Whitman"

LOVE is anterior to life

LOVE is anterior to life,
Posterior to death,
Initial of creation, and
The exponent of breath.

Omnia Sol Temperat

Omnia sol temperat
purus et subtilis,
novo mundo reserat
faciem Aprilis,
ad amorem properat
animus herilis
et iocundis imperat
deus puerilis.

Rerum tanta novitas
in solemni vere
et veris auctoritas
jubet nos gaudere;
vias prebet solitas,
et in tuo vere
fides est et probitas
tuum retinere.

Ama me fideliter,
fidem meam noto:
de corde totaliter
et ex mente tota
sum presentialiter
absens in remota,
quisquis amat taliter,
volvitur in rota.

TO lose thee, sweeter than to gain

TO lose thee, sweeter than to gain
All other hearts I knew.
’T is true the drought is destitute,
But then I had the dew!

The Caspian has its realms of sand, 5
Its other realm of sea;
Without the sterile perquisite
No Caspian could be.

HEART, we will forget him!

HEART, we will forget him!
You and I, to-night!
You may forget the warmth he gave,
I will forget the light.

When you have done, pray tell me, 5
That I my thoughts may dim;
Haste! lest while you’re lagging,
I may remember him!

I ’M ceded, I ’ve stopped being theirs

I ’M ceded, I ’ve stopped being theirs;
The name they dropped upon my face
With water, in the country church,
Is finished using now,
And they can put it with my dolls, 5
My childhood, and the string of spools
I ’ve finished threading too.

Baptized before without the choice,
But this time consciously, of grace
Unto supremest name, 10
Called to my full, the crescent dropped,
Existence’s whole arc filled up
With one small diadem.

My second rank, too small the first,
Crowned, crowing on my father’s breast, 15
A half unconscious queen;
But this time, adequate, erect,
With will to choose or to reject,
And I choose—just a throne.

MY worthiness is all my doubt

MY worthiness is all my doubt,
His merit all my fear,
Contrasting which, my qualities
Do lowlier appear;

Lest I should insufficient prove 5
For his beloved need,
The chiefest apprehension
Within my loving creed.

So I, the undivine abode
Of his elect content, 10
Conform my soul as ’t were a church
Unto her sacrament.

LET me not mar that perfect dream

LET me not mar that perfect dream
By an auroral stain,
But so adjust my daily night
That it will come again.

ONE blessing had I, than the rest

ONE blessing had I, than the rest
So larger to my eyes
That I stopped gauging, satisfied,
For this enchanted size.

It was the limit of my dream, 5
The focus of my prayer,—
A perfect, paralyzing bliss
Contented as despair.

I knew no more of want or cold,
Phantasms both become, 10
For this new value in the soul,
Supremest earthly sum.

The heaven below the heaven above
Obscured with ruddier hue.
Life’s latitude leant over-full; 15
The judgment perished, too.

Why joys so scantily disburse,
Why Paradise defer,
Why floods are served to us in bowls,—
I speculate no more.

YOU left me, sweet, two legacies

YOU left me, sweet, two legacies,—
A legacy of love
A Heavenly Father would content,
Had He the offer of;

You left me boundaries of pain 5
Capacious as the sea,
Between eternity and time,
Your consciousness and me.

Circa mea pectora

Circa mea pectora
multa sunt suspiria
de tua pulchritudine,
que me ledunt misere.
Manda liet,
Manda liet
min geselle
chumet niet.

Tui lucent oculi
sicut solis radii,
sicut splendor fulguris
lucem donat tenebris.
Manda liet
Manda liet,
min geselle
chumet niet.

Miles to Go Before I Sleep

Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village, though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.
My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there's some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.


It little profits that an idle king,
By this still hearth, among these barren crags,
Match'd with an aged wife, I mete and dole
Unequal laws unto a savage race,
That hoard, and sleep, and feed, and know not me.
I cannot rest from travel: I will drink
Life to the lees: All times I have enjoy'd
Greatly, have suffer'd greatly, both with those
That loved me, and alone, on shore, and when
Thro' scudding drifts the rainy Hyades
Vext the dim sea: I am become a name;
For always roaming with a hungry heart
Much have I seen and known; cities of men
And manners, climates, councils, governments,
Myself not least, but honour'd of them all;
And drunk delight of battle with my peers,
Far on the ringing plains of windy Troy.
I am a part of all that I have met;
Yet all experience is an arch wherethro'
Gleams that untravell'd world whose margin fades
For ever and forever when I move.
How dull it is to pause, to make an end,
To rust unburnish'd, not to shine in use!
As tho' to breathe were life! Life piled on life
Were all too little, and of one to me
Little remains: but every hour is saved
From that eternal silence, something more,
A bringer of new things; and vile it were
For some three suns to store and hoard myself,
And this gray spirit yearning in desire
To follow knowledge like a sinking star,
Beyond the utmost bound of human thought.

This is my son, mine own Telemachus,
To whom I leave the sceptre and the isle,---
Well-loved of me, discerning to fulfil
This labour, by slow prudence to make mild
A rugged people, and thro' soft degrees
Subdue them to the useful and the good.
Most blameless is he, centred in the sphere
Of common duties, decent not to fail
In offices of tenderness, and pay
Meet adoration to my household gods,
When I am gone. He works his work, I mine.

There lies the port; the vessel puffs her sail:
There gloom the dark, broad seas. My mariners,
Souls that have toil'd, and wrought, and thought with me ---
That ever with a frolic welcome took
The thunder and the sunshine, and opposed
Free hearts, free foreheads --- you and I are old;
Old age hath yet his honour and his toil;
Death closes all: but something ere the end,
Some work of noble note, may yet be done,
Not unbecoming men that strove with Gods.
The lights begin to twinkle from the rocks:
The long day wanes: the slow moon climbs: the deep
Moans round with many voices. Come, my friends,
'Tis not too late to seek a newer world.
Push off, and sitting well in order smite
The sounding furrows; for my purpose holds
To sail beyond the sunset, and the baths
Of all the western stars, until I die.
It may be that the gulfs will wash us down:
It may be we shall touch the Happy Isles,
And see the great Achilles, whom we knew.
Tho' much is taken, much abides; and tho'
We are not now that strength which in old days
Moved earth and heaven, that which we are, we are;
One equal temper of heroic hearts,
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.

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